Saturday, August 11, 2012

those sliding doors... style cuddle gets emo for a moment

 i am gonna be candid for a moment. and excuse my emo, existential moment.  

i've been thinking a lot on the "end game" - that where do you see yourself, who do you want to be, and what do you need to do to get there. here is the thing, i've never had an end game. if i had an end game, i don't think i would be where i am now. not having an end game or a 5 year plan has taken me on the biggest adventure (and at times, misadventure) ever.

5 years ago if you told me in 2012 i'd have completed an MA, assist on an award winning documentary, teach 2 undergrad classes at nyu, guest lecture, go into pr to help launch one of my favourite brands in the USA, work in fashion, create a blog, go work in a blogging tech start up... let alone all in new york city, living in the heart of brooklyn(!) - i would not have believed you.  maybe the MA part (cuz i am a nerd times 10), but the rest? definitely no. no way

i often wonder those "what ifs" and those sliding door moments (remember that gwyneth paltrow movie from the 90s), where decision making meets fate and rationale interacts with chance. i can't even think about it for too long without freaking out.  but this is life (woah!) and i really couldn't be luckier, misadventures and all.

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